Have you heard this song?
Because I can't stop listening to it.
I read or heard somewhere recently that we are most responsive when God calls to us through beauty or pain, and that is certainly true in my life. For a while now it's been a time* of pain for me; a time extended by my stubborn refusal to acknowledge said pain, which always ends up only causing more. Just like a person who ignores an injury, pretending it will go away, until they finally land in the operating room with a gangrenous limb needing to be amputated. It may sound extreme, but you'd be shocked how often it happens. In a similar way, I find myself at times emotionally hobbling through the days, unable to connect with what I feel because I'm too wrapped up in chasing distraction after distraction. Music often serves as a bridge to my feelings...and that's what happened with this song.
I'm so thankful God never gets fed up or turns away from me in anger. I'm thankful for this journey he's been leading me on. I'm thankful for all the amazing people I've met along the way and traveled alongside for a time. I'm excited to find out what's next, even though it's often a painful process of giving up control (the sweetest illusion) and learning to trust God.
*(please note the deliberate non-usage of the word 'season' which is one of those stuff-Christians-say words that has crept into my vocabulary against my will)
